A Love Story

I just would like to share a story that I had read years ago in a magazine that I really cannot remember what is the name of the mag, anyways, I really cannot forget this story because I was really touched by it and I do hope you guys will also love it.


This is a story about a girl named K, some of the words are changed because I don't memorize all the exact details how the story was written but still it's just the same, the words/phrases/scenarios/little details about the characters might not be exactly how the writer narrated it. I just added some details to make the story much more exciting. Again, I am not the writer, I just read it and just wanna share it with you. Here's how it goes.



My name is K and today is my birthday. As I made my way downstairs, my brother saw me and greeted me,
"Happy birthday K!" he said,
"Thanks!" I replied.
I was happily walking through the kitchen when my mom shouted
"K, Josh is here."
My face lightened up when I heard his name, Josh is my boyfriend for more than a year now and I am so in love with him. Even he doesn't have the time for me that much recently because of basketball, I still love him. As I see him outside, I was shocked to see a scar on his forehead,
"What happened to you?"
"No, don't mind me, I just bumped into an old cabinet this morning."
"Oh, okay, why don't you come inside?"
"No need, I just dropped by to give you this, Happy birthday K!" He smiled and it was the sweetest smile ever, but I feel something wrong though. He handed me a letter and a CD of my fave band, he's so sweet.
"Oh, thank you so much Josh."
"You're welcome", he hugged me so tight and kissed me for almost a minute. It was the best and longest kiss we ever shared in our entire relationship, I wish my parents weren't looking, but I am 16 already, they will understand. After the kiss Josh looked me in the eye and he hugged me again, there was something in his eyes that's telling me not to let go, he was smiling but his eyes were, what, sad?! He hold my hand and whispered
"I love you."
Then he left. I was left standing at the door when the phone rings,
"Hello K, so glad you are okay." It was Karen, my best friend. I was surprised about what she said but I didn't mind it because I am so happy.
"Karen, why shouldn't I be okay, it's my birthday, and Josh was so sweet, he gave me a gift and-" she interrupted me.
"K, yesterday, at the music store, Josh was shot, he is dead."
No, that's impossible, I just saw Josh awhile ago, he doesn't look dead, oh and the scar, and his eyes that's telling me not to let go, oh no, oh no...
I ran to my room and locked myself inside, I was crying my eyes out, why? We just shared a kiss, this cannot be. My mom entered the room but she did not say anything, maybe it was real, he is dead now. I leaned my head on my mom's shoulder and after that she said,
"Everything is going to be okay dear, happy birthday." She handed me the CD and letter that I left on the table, the gifts that Josh gave me. Mom kissed me on my forehead and left. I played the CD he gave me and I opened the letter from Josh, it made me cry much more when I read it, it said:
"K, I am sorry for the things that I have done to make you feel I don't love you, I am sorry because I do love you and I shouldn't have given you any reasons to even think for a second that I don't. I love you so much and I wish I could still be given a chance to show you much I do love you.

Josh :(

IF ONLY

If LOVE…

is like a feather so light and white why it feels so heavy in my heart?

If LOVE is soft and pure why does this pain of mine has no cure?

If LOVE is wonderful and colorful why it’s treating me so cruel?

If LOVE feels good why does it gives me bad mood?

If LOVE makes someone smile why am I crying every once in a while?

If LOVE is a gift from GOD why does it makes me feel so sad?

And If LOVE makes someone HAPPY then why am I feeling BROKEN and EMPTY?

Another Day

It's another day and I always thank God for giving me the strength to go through all the things that I need to do. Life never runs out of surprises to give us so everyday we always look forward to the new things that we will encounter. It always makes me wonder why other people wanted to end their life or at least complain when there are other huge things that we need to worry about right? Instead of thinking about our own petty problems, why don't we think about the other people who doesn't have a home? A food to eat? An education to achieve? Or at least a penny to buy a candy? Why don't we think about the children sleeping in the streets or selling something just for a living? Even though we really cannot give them a big help like in money terms, we can actually help them by including them in our prayers every night.
Not all of us are lucky to get what we have right now so we should always be thankful if we are able to survive another night. Even if we are not the richest or wealthiest human being on earth, we should at least be happy just to be here on earth and do things that we ought and live to do. Before thinking or complaining about what you have, please think about those who really doesn't have anything at all.

Hurting deeply

I hate you for making me like you.

I wish I never should have met you

but then again I was happy since

I came to know you so

I don't know what I really feel.

I don't know if I will regret ever giving

my everything to you although

I was happy and

you made me happy.

I felt so stupid of ever wanting you when

I know it's just game that you're into.

I cannot seem to forget you though I know I must.

There is something wrong with "us" or

since there is no "us"

then there is something wrong with you and

me that I don't know what.

Worst is even though

I felt something wrong when I'm with you,

the way you hold me and kiss me make it right.

I'm not in love with you but I can be wrong.

I will try to forget and avoid you to stop this non-sense.

I deserve better than this.

I hope you never meant to play these games with me

because it's not easy.

I hope you are happy.

I hope you will remember me but then again

I know you will not, you won't even feel that

I am starting to disappear in your life.

You are stupid, but then again,

I'm stupid because I'm feeling this way for you.

Fabulously SingLe

Are you desperately in need of a boyfriend? Just because you don't want to be alone anymore and your friends all have boyfriends already? If you are feeling that way, stop thinking about it. Being single doesn't mean you are alone in this world, you have your friends and family if you need company right? And you don't need to be a part of a couple just to be complete. Being single gives you a chance to love yourself, appreciate the things around you and do things that attached people cannot. It may worry you that you are still single but that is okay, we are just humans and we tend to feel insecure or maybe pathetic at times.

If you are feeling alone while your friends are cuddling with their men, don't ever think there is something wrong with you, it's just not your time to shine yet. Having a boyfriend is not an instant thing, it will take time, unless of course if you are looking for a fling not a boyfriend. But anyhow, being single means more free time to do the stuff you love without asking permission to anyone and more chances of meeting more people or maybe a totally hot guy ei!?

Single life is not the worst thing that could ever happen to you unless you see it that way. We need to be reminded that getting or having a boyfriend should comes with the right reason not with the reason that you don't want to be left out with the crowd. Reality check: There are more women who tend to be more successful because they remained unattached until they are there in the spotlight of their career. If we are in a relationship and wanted to explore things or check our options, it might be hard for us to pursue it because you don't want your other behalf to be left behind or maybe you don't want your attention to be grabbed by any other else. We need to consider a lot of things if we are attached so it's much more better to remain single while you are at it. I'm not saying you cannot achieve anything if you have a boyfriend or girlfriend, it's just my way of saying, there's more to life of a single than the attached.

If you are single, enjoy it. You are not going to be single forever of course, so while you are patiently waiting for your dream man or woman, enjoy your freedom. Being single is the only way where you get to know yourself much more better and discover things that are hiding in there. You might be surprise of the things that you will see and learn. Trust me.

Moving On and Letting Go

Break ups is one of the hardest part in our life, we cannot tell when it’s going to happen but it will bound to happen. We will go through a lot of things during the process of the after break-ups. First process will be moving on, that will be slowly accepting the fact that the two of you is already over, it’s not easy especially for first love because the feeling is new and you don’t know how to deal with it yet. You will feel depress, lonely and you cannot avoid asking yourself, “why life is so unfair?” Life is not really fair and it will never be. We just have to accept things that come in our life and learn from it. It’s really hard to move on, especially if you had given everything to make it work. But it’s still not enough. There will be times that you want to hate yourself because you thought you are to blame because you did not put any effort to work the relationship out or you regret the times that you did not do those things that you should have done but honestly it will not really help if you think that way. Always remember, you broke up for a reason and think about that reason to help you accept that it’s the end for the both of you. Everything was already said and done so there’s no reason for you to blame yourself or the other person. And we can never turn back the time so there’s no sense for dwelling in the past anymore.
You can start moving on by crying, confiding in a friend or by giving yourself enough space to feel the absence of the person in your heart or by giving yourself time to think about what happened. Collect your thoughts and try to think about the good things the experience gave you. Never ever force yourself to forget the person because it will only make you miss him/her. Healing a broken heart takes time and will undergo a process, it’s not a shirt that can be dried by overnight so don’t rush things. If it helps to burn all the things that reminds you of the person, go and burn it. Just always think that someone much better will come and will make you happy again, just be patient, have faith and everything else will follow. Try to be as optimistic as you can because it will help you clear your mind and you can only think of positive thoughts. And always smile, as what they say, smiling is the first step of healing. After you have moved on, you need now to let go. Letting go is one of the most important thing to do, some people say that moving on is enough to recover from a heart-ache, but it’s not actually correct. You cannot say you have moved on if you haven’t let go of everything, if you will not let go, chances are you will still hope, wish or work hard to get back to the relationship and risk getting hurt again. You have to let go of the expectations, the hopes, the feelings and the longings that you have w/ the person so that you can start again when someone new comes. Again, I know letting go is very damn hard, but once you get there, you can breathe easy. Some people learn to let go after few months of moving on but some unlucky people have learn to do it after a couple of years. It will take all your effort and strength to get over everything, but trust me; it will be much harder if you do it alone, depending on someone will make things a little easy if you seek or ask for a friend some good advise or if not, just by having people around you will help ease the pains that your feeling. After you have learn to move on and let go of everything, you will find peace in your heart and you will be brave enough to face a new chapter in your life that’s waiting for you to unravel. Always remember to pray and to think God is here for you all the time. You have also to remember that you’re not alone in this world who experience that, there are other people there who had been there but they survived, so you can do it also. Be strong and be a fighter. Things will not work by themselves if you will not take a first step. Move on and let go so you will not be trapped by your past and be haunted by it.