Hurting deeply

I hate you for making me like you.

I wish I never should have met you

but then again I was happy since

I came to know you so

I don't know what I really feel.

I don't know if I will regret ever giving

my everything to you although

I was happy and

you made me happy.

I felt so stupid of ever wanting you when

I know it's just game that you're into.

I cannot seem to forget you though I know I must.

There is something wrong with "us" or

since there is no "us"

then there is something wrong with you and

me that I don't know what.

Worst is even though

I felt something wrong when I'm with you,

the way you hold me and kiss me make it right.

I'm not in love with you but I can be wrong.

I will try to forget and avoid you to stop this non-sense.

I deserve better than this.

I hope you never meant to play these games with me

because it's not easy.

I hope you are happy.

I hope you will remember me but then again

I know you will not, you won't even feel that

I am starting to disappear in your life.

You are stupid, but then again,

I'm stupid because I'm feeling this way for you.